Personal manifesto_pt.2

Hello, dear part of me.
Am coming back to you again as am having a spike of pain inside. You are more powerful, you are more strong, being yourself helps me to grow up and look at the things from the other side.
One more year passed and I can say now: nothing really changed. I could do much more for myself, but I gave my time and power to others. Now it's time to turn on the egoism.
My feelings became more intensive. Whatever I feel, I've no doubt it has its meaning. I make no mistakes in choosing people.
I must make an edgy leap now, standing on one's head. It's not the time for being disappointed.
Loving the World is the only feeling I can't control.

Final celebration of bad hallucination

It's always importaint to control the feeling of integrality.

Who wants little monsters to attack?

My God tells me right decisions. 

Day 204.Or 203. Don't know. 

Goodbye, demon.

Personal manifesto?

Hello, my empty sketchbook!

Finally want to share something. The spring comes and I'm full of energy and ideas. I love my life again, I want to catch every moment and be ready for new things coming! 

Realized that the best thing I can do is listening to my intuition which tells me the right decisions all the time. 

I need to work harder to understand if the dress of architecture suits me or not.

I'm finding the harmony hidden in myself; now I percieve more then I did before, starting to understand how moods are having their influence on people and their lifes, how situations and conditions work - am growing up.

I can understand myself better, can distinguish what I really like and what I don't. I did it before all the time just without being aware! But awareness is something that makes life sooooo interesting - just because you can change the way you think on every step you make. Changing the thought - changing the plan - changing the way you go.

Need to get over my own fears. They are so stupid. All of them! It's like a global cleaning, having a special order, special frame in your head. The main thing in this frame: it helps you to find new horisonts, be more creative, because you can't do anything without a frame - it's something that makes limits and gives you the thoughts. When you have a limit it's much more interesting when you are breaking it when it has something inside of it.

Enough for the start :)

Ok. Something at least miserably creative, but every day. I promise.

Hello, sketchbook. You are so empty. Didn't paint normally from last year's December.
What's new? New paper model. Didn't go as well as I expected.

This is a special space designed to be a meeting place for creative people: for painting, for reading poems, for making music. Pretty hard to describe all the details... Took me one night to make it + some previous preparations. It was always hard for me to work with paper this way, but I got over it this time :)

Any ideas? Have to work harder to have the time for interesting projects. Seems impossible.